The reality of living with cancer
The names removed from one of the families we are supporting to ensure anonymity. Sending them so much love right now 💛💛💛💛
Today I am tired
Tired of cancer
Tired of my daughter asking if I’m ok everytime she hears me cough
Tired of coughing
Tired of travelling to London for treatment that we aren’t clear is working
Today I am tired
Tired of side effects, eyebrows and lashes just exactly where are you going?
Tired of the cold cap, it’s hell, but a different kind of hell to being bald
Tired of blood tests, scans, ECGs, biopsies, X Rays and everything else we are counting on to have even a minor celebration
Tired of hearing ‘you’ve got this!’ Or ‘you can fight this’. No, no I haven’t and no I won’t win
Today I am tired
Tired of being in my head, a mess of excitement for plans with confusion about the future
Tired of the pain in my husband’s eyes everytime he looks at me, scared
Tired of thinking about how will they cope when I’m gone? Who will take my daughter wedding dress shopping and hold my sons hand when he has his heart checked?
Tired of the aches and pains, breathlessness and exhaustion
Today I am tired
I might be tired, but I am alive and tomorrow is a new day